I wasn’t out as gay until I was about 22 years old
Sexual preferences can come easy for many but there are some who go through a rough patch trying to figure out their sexual preferences. Some even go through turmoil once their sexual preferences are out.
While same sex marriages are still considered illegal in many countries it doesn’t make this young man and his partner stay away from each other.
Coming from a country where being a gay or a lesbian is considered illegal this young man shares his experience of being molested by a babysitter to having a threesome and how he finally found the man in his life.
As told to us,
"I live in Malaysia. I have to say that I’m not fully gay. I’m bisexual. I found out that I have feelings for guys when I was about 13 years old. This feeling grew stronger when I was in my secondary school at a boarding school aged 17-18.I like boys with good looks, great physique and who take good care of their health and hygiene. They have to be intelligent and have a great sense of humour.
I have to say that I wasn’t out as gay until I was about 22 years old. It all started when I was a little boy. I was molested by my baby sitter when I was 8. But instead of hating it, there were sparks of feelings that began to surface in which I didn’t really understand. I started to like these new feelings.
Both of my parents were food hawkers at the city centre of Kuala Lumpur. They were always busy and let me wonder the city on my own. This opportunity has allowed me to explore many places in the city and made new friends from different cultures and backgrounds.
I then started to like both girls and boys and when I was in primary school. I had my first sex with a girl when I was about 10 years old. The girl was my classmate in primary school and we lived nearby and always played together. One day, she invited me to her house and we watched porn together. That was the first time I saw sexual intercourse between a man and a woman. We both started to kiss each other. One move led to another and we ended up having sex on her parents’ bed. She had a younger sister who was a year older than her. There were a few occasions that the sister joined us and we all had threesome. Even until today, I couldn’t believe myself that I did such things when I was at a very young age.
Apart from that, between the age of 10-14 I also had casual sex with some of my male friends. My feelings towards men began to grow even stronger when I was sent to all boys boarding school. I spent about two years in that school and I have lost count the number of guys that I had sex with and this also included one of the male teachers who really fancied me. I even had special privileges because of that. Normally students were only allowed to go out to town once a week, but because of that teacher I could be able to go out whenever I wanted as long as I was with him.
After all this experience now I have found the love of my life and have been with him for 10 years. I’m truly grateful to finally meet the one that I really love and want to spend the rest of my life with him. As for my family members none of them know about my sexual orientation yet. I don’t know what their reaction would be when they hear that I have been living with a man for the last 10 years."